In the end, they're all the same

What's that? I have a cute face, pretty eyes...I'm smart and funny. But it's not enough is it? You sit there and list the reasons why I should stay. Why I am not a loser, why I should give life another try. Then, at the first turn, it doesn't matter I gave you a shot. I put myself out there, and rejection once again slaps me in the face. Why did you bother in the first place.

I feel the wind knocking me forward
Giving me the final push, sweet release
My toes step swiftly over the edge...excited
this is it, the moment ive been waiting for.

following the current of the air, i fly
weightless...with a grin spread wide on my face
What crashes below me, it does not matter
I am free. I do not hurt. I will be gone.

There it is, I know it's close now...
I can now afford to think of your face one last time
I can stand the agony your eyes, just for my last few seconds
It'll all be over soon.

Thank you. Your pity words gave me one last smile
One last hope that maybe there was life out there
Ah...there is the end. Let me close my eyes, it wont hurt.
Hope you're happy, hope you're free.

-Yari, 09

It Snows...

In accord with the coldness I feel inside today, outside...the grayest day in existence. It snows...it drizzles. The cold breeze cuts at my face, just like the emptiness slashes in my chest.

Are you thinking of me? Are you out there looking for me? There's more to me than what you see. Give me a chance, don't turn away. Please just...stay. Nobody will make you feel like I can. Who needs anything else in the world except for this precise moment. You have but to look in my eyes and you'll see, I've been here a lifetime...waiting for your smile. I cannot hurt you, don't walk away please...just...two more seconds...please. It's cold.

Stay long enough, for me to realize you are not a dream. Every time I blink...every time my eyes close...your face haunts me. The sadness in your eyes breaks me. Give me some of your time, I want to see you smile. I could write a thousand page novel just on the way your lips part when you sigh...the way your eyes glisten.

Sit down...stay a while

Inspired by "Sev", that's right, from B&L2

When am I going to learn
To keep my heart at bay
To never care for someone
Ignore the words they say.

I should have walked off
Put myself in first place
Learn to hide the thoughts
That dance across my face.

Always the same mistake
Of caring much too fast
Hoping maybe this time
Is different from the last.

I guess it was quite obvious
It is my mistake, again
Twisting words, confusion
I’m not even your friend.

I hope you enjoyed yourself
Your ego stroked, satisfied
Go find someone who cares

I’ll push my heart back inside.
-Y.C. 09